My 2011

I know I've been saying many times that I will keep this blog as alive as possible, however laziness has caught up upon me and caused all this hurrah. ;)

I've been having a dilemma lately. Looking at myself in the mirror makes me awfully sad especially when I'm looking at the countdown days to another new year. What have I done this year honestly?

Think about it, I actually done a lot. I'm in a relationship which  lasted longer than any other of mine, we fought, we broke up, we made up a billion times in 300 days or so. He touched my till the deepest end of my heart, look through my weakness and evil in my soul, made me feel good about myself, most of all, he gave me the courage to stand up upon myself and chose what I really wanted in my life.

Second big thing I've done is going back to college and made a lot of young friends. First it was the shitty party uni, which less than half a year I decided this is not the path I chose  for myself. I was still kinda rebellious at that moment, after promising my cousin that I would never change into another college again and I'm gonna stick with what I've chosen, I then moved into The One Academy. A place which although is very different from everything I've experienced before, but I love what I'm doing there: drawing apples, capsicums, baskets, people, study history of art (very boring though), not sleeping for 2 days 2 nights to complete a final project with groupmates, etc..

Well I really forgot what's the third big thing I did this year. However I believe I change a lot. Not saying I'm more matured, but I do know that I'm at least brave enough to stand up for what I believe, not just accepting everything and keeping quiet in the corner. I look things in a different way now, accepting flaws and imperfection, and try my best to be more considerate ( I always had a problem with this part in the old days). Well about party life, I believe I quit a lot. Clubbing once in 2 or 3 months is consider okay, right? Drinking once in a while with a few friends, or with my love: Ali, then talk crap, then got drunk and sleep.

Oh, I forgot. I finally went to the first ever rave party like, hmm, I don't know how to describe it, but I went to deadmau5 this year!!! The experience was truly awesome. Thanks baby, for the extraordinary experience you gave me. I only started listening to House/Electro music after I got to know Ali. And of course I fell in love with it. I love most of the songs which he likes, DJ which he loves, I think I'm becoming like him. 0.o

2011 overall was great. But stepping into a new year, means I'm going to be 23. Means, I have to start buying anti-aging products if I still wish to be a okay looking person in my 30s. :( Skin condition is so different from before. Uneven skin tone, eye bags, rough skin bla bla bla are all appearing due to my heavy make up (yes I'm very addicted to heavy make up and I believe I look really ugly without it ), it's not like 2 years ago anymore, where I party days and night, not removing make up and just directly go to bed, not using any kind of skin products, well maybe once in a while some random cheap mask, my face still looks okay. Body has been so weak. Can't stay up late and still be energetic in the next day, and I get tired easily when I'm shopping in any big malls. :( That's a huge awakening factor to me, means I really have to start taking care of myself. Buying those weird supplements and consume it like a crazy woman.

Yes, I'm now a woman. No longer a chic, or a kiddo, or a girl. Say yes to matured lady. :D